Solitary Forever - Before I Turn

I’m done being open

With myself

With my life

With my thoughts

I’ve tried being honest

With the ones that I thought I loved

Every time I’m trying

I’m weak

I’m just a failure

Every day I’m dying

Every time I look in the fucking mirror

Alone, solitary, useless, forever

Alone, solitary, useless, forever

Alone, solitary, useless, forever

Alone, solitary, useless, forever

I lay confined to my bed

The lights are bright and there’s voices in my head

They tell me constantly to believe that there’s nothing more to live for

I stand somehow I’m not dead

The knife is so sharp and my blood is so red

Just do it

Just do it

It’ll be over soon

Just do it

Just do it

It’ll be over soon

Leaving me out do dry

My fate is set so why do I even try

In the dark I’m stuck in the mud

I bite my tongue just to taste the fucking blood

Alone, solitary, useless, forever

Alone, solitary, useless, forever

Alone, solitary, useless, forever

Alone, solitary, useless, forever

Take me to my special place

My wrists cut and a nurse in my face

Let me live inside this house

Without a bullet or a gun in my mouth

Fuck

Alone, darkness, solitary, forever

Alone, darkness, solitary, forever

Alone, darkness, solitary, forever

Alone, darkness, solitary, forever