Fuck You - Articolo 31, Paola Turci

Lascerò tutti I miei figli ad un futuro incerto,

Mangerò composta a tavola con mani giunte,

Piangerò con discrezione senza dar nell’occhio,

Dormirò come se fossi morta, I say, fuck you

C’era una volta una promessa, una carezza,

Un bilocale come una fortezza, chiamarti la mia principessa,

C’era la fretta, del taxi tuo che aspetta ma non vuoi andare

C’era una foto di noi al mare, c’era un vuoto che puoi colmare,

Gelati e film da noleggiare, c’era da togliersi I vestiti e poi volare,

C’era la gelosia e tu che te ne andavi, e correre da te

E quando per magia mi chiamavi

Pregherò affinché tu possa avere tutto ciò che vuoi,

Soldi, macchine, e una donna al giorno,

E la possibilità di avere tutto e subito

Senza aver bisogno di essere mai perdonato

I say fuck you, you will never know,

What is turning in my mind fuck you, so you better watch out,

So you better watch out, out

C’erano cene mondane, stare composto,

E il mio bere e fumare che volevi cambiare a ogni costo,

C’erano scene di panico senza motivo

Ed il tuo essere isterica per il modo in cui vivo,

E farmi stare simpatica la tua amica più idiota,

La filosofia del tuo maestro di yoga,

Poi c’era l’emicrania e I sospetti silenzi,

Io al mare tu in montagna,

C’era parlare lingue differenti

Asseconderò ogni tua perversa inclinazione,

Proverò ad interpretare ogni tuo malumore,

Sarò pronta accanto a te quando verrà il momento,

Quando il tempo ti restituirà quello che hai dato

I say fuck you, you will never know,

What is turning in my mind fuck you, so you better watch out out

Ma adesso metti bene a fuoco, mi vedi,

Sono caduto in piedi, ci credi, — non ti cercherò -

Ho tolto le foto dalle pareti e nei miei sogni segreti

— non ti vedo — e a dormire ci riesco, esco quando mi va

Bevo, abbondanti sorsate di libertà,

Faccio assordanti risate con gli amici al bar,

Su come ero spento quando perdevo tempo, stando con quella là

— sfumi nella memoria, non ti penso mai — e ogni mentire,

ogni fare soffrire

Ci insegna la storia — pagherai — e so che a ogni risveglio

— non ci sarai —

E so che tanto di meglio — non troverai — mai,

ho due parole e una bombola spray

Fuck you — per quando tornerai

I say fuck you, you will never know,

What is turning in my mind fuck you,

so you better watch out, so you better watch out, out

I will leave all my children for an uncertain future,

I will eat compote at the table with folded hands,

I will cry with discretion without attracting attention,

I'll sleep like I'm dead, I say, fuck you

Once upon a time there was a promise, a caress,

A one bedroom apartment like a fortress, call you my princess,

There was a rush of your taxi waiting but you don't want to go

There was a photo of us at the sea, there was a void that you can fill,

Ice cream and films to rent, you had to take off your clothes and then fly,

There was jealousy and you leaving, and running to you

And when by magic you called me

I will pray that you can have everything you want,

Money, cars, and a woman a day,

And the possibility of having everything immediately

Without ever needing to be forgiven

I say fuck you, you will never know,

What is turning in my mind fuck you, so you better watch out,

So you better watch out, out

There were worldly dinners, stay composed,

And my drinking and smoking that you wanted to change at any cost,

There were scenes of panic for no reason

And your being hysterical about the way I live,

And make me like your most idiotic friend,

The philosophy of your yoga teacher,

Then there was the migraine and the suspected silences,

I at the sea you in the mountains,

There was speaking different languages

I will indulge your every perverse inclination,

I'll try to interpret your every bad mood,

I'll be ready beside you when the time comes,

When time will give you back what you have given

I say fuck you, you will never know,

What is turning in my mind fuck you, so you better watch out out

But now focus well, you see me,

I fell on my feet, believe it, - I won't look for you -

I took the photos off the walls and into my secret dreams

- I don't see you - and I can sleep, I go out when I want

I drink, abundant sips of freedom,

I have deafening laughs with friends at the bar,

About how dull I was when I was wasting my time, being with that one over there

- fades into memory, I never think of you - and every lie,

each make to suffer

History teaches us - you will pay - and I know that with each awakening

- you won't be there -

And I know that so much better - you will not find - ever,

I have two words and a spray can

Fuck you - for when you come back

I say fuck you, you will never know,

What is turning in my mind fuck you,

so you better watch out, so you better watch out, out