Deliverance for the Damned - Alustrium

A world of color returns

Feeling of warmth renewed

Senses return to what they once were prior to

Joining the dead here in this place

Start to remember something other than pain

Euphoria calls

Go down to ascend

Medicated bliss

Rapture is achieved

And just maybe the answer is not

To wait for help but go and find it

This introduction to madness seems to have cured

And filled the hollow space within me

I’ve been looking for a way to

Remember who I once was

Mask the pain and overflow

Take the reins by giving in

Self-inflicted liberty

Tastes so sweet, like liquid mirth

Hold on tight or lose control

And spiral out and slip away

Drunken, drugged up, splendid ecstasy

I’m alive

For the first time in so long

Invincible, immaculate and free from everything

That dragged me down like tons of brick

A sensational new emotion to abuse

And just maybe the truth of it all

Is I chose to feel this pain within

In mania, depressed me seems a fool

As I fill this hollow space within me

I’ve been looking for a way to

Remember who I once was

Mask the pain and overflow

Take the reins by giving in

Self-inflicted liberty

Tastes so sweet, like liquid mirth

Hold on tight or lose control

And spiral out and slip away

Panicked, terror-stricken ecstasy

Once again lose what’s me

The grip on my sanity is loosened

As the pain flows freely from my lips

And through this body until I am free

Consciousness is pulled back, now see the body from afar as it stumbles

Making the same mistake again on repeat, each time feeling better yet worse

With a sick satisfaction

I drown myself in the poison that numbs yet exacerbates

Each second that passes brings closer the nauseated comfort that I crave

Time melts

Behind me is loss, before is the same

I shake, I quiver, I fall

Behind me is loss, before is the same

I bow, I bend, I break

I am now nothing

Just a pile of firing nerves

Whose synapses flare, and only crave more

There’s no solace in this fleeting break

This euphoric reprieve

No deliverance for the damned

I’ve been looking

I’ve been looking for a way to

Remember who I once was

Mask the pain and overflow

Take the reins by giving in

Self-inflicted liberty

Tastes so sweet, like liquid mirth

Hold on tight or lose control

And spiral out and slip away