I'm Not Supposed To Know - Abbey Lincoln

I’m not supposed to know you need me;

how much you need to show

that you don’t care.

I’m not supposed to know

how close you find love

or understand the meaning of the scare.

How much you need to hold me close to kill me

How much you need to take my breath away

I know I’m not supposed to really love you

But still I love you anyway

I’m not supposed to know that love is hurtful

and everybody does the best they can

I’m not supposed to know there is a difference

in being just a woman or a man.

How much it takes to really climb a mountain

sometimes to follow through

I’m not supposed to know you really love me

I’m not supposed to know, but I do.