What I'm About To Say - Kayak

What I’m about to say

May come out of the blue

A sudden darkness that won’t disappear

What I’m about to say

May break our world in two

But one that wasn’t ever really here

And does it matter in the end

How long we’ve loved or how we’ve made it last

It’s taken longer to pretend

To hold on to an image of the past

Cause what I’m about to say

I’ve told you time and time again

Only I just wasn’t speaking out

Or you wouldn’t understand

How my love had worn away

That’s what I was trying to say

What I’m about to say

May twist a dagger in your heart

And shatter all the hopes and dreams you had

What I’m about to say

May leave you badly bruised and scarred

Wondering if live was ever meant to hurt like that

But does it matter in the end

What could have been or what we’ve lost

We build a fortress out of sand

With borders that nobody should have crossed

Cause what I’m about to say

I’ve told you time and time again

Only I just wasn’t speaking out

Or you wouldn’t understand

How my love was torn away

That’s what I’d been trying to say

I told myself all wounds could heal

If only given time

But love felt like a poisoned arrow

Stuck inside my mind

I wanted to believe so badly

Trust could be rewon

And God knows that I tried to love you

But the feeling’s gone

Now I watch you sleeping, peacefully, unarmed

Lying here beside me, unaware and unalarmed

I pray the night won’t go away

For what I’m about to say